“I’m a Tank, Tanks don’t cry!”

I feel like complete shit! Our team was about to win, I needed the strikes in the  tenth frame, and can you guess what I got instead?! Yep! That’s right! A dammed Ten Pin! And on top of it all my sister is so embarrassing! she was like pouting for the whole match because she didn’t get to bowl.

“Dark Side”
By: Kelly Clarkson

Oh oh oh, there’s a place that I know
It’s not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away?

Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody’s got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody’s a picture perfect
But we’re worth it
You know that we’re worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond
From black dust
It’s hard to know
What can become
If you give up
So don’t give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody’s got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody’s a picture perfect
But we’re worth it
You know that we’re worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don’t run away
Don’t run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don’t run away
Don’t run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay

Will you love me? ohh

Everybody’s got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody’s a picture perfect
But we’re worth it
You know that we’re worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don’t run away
Don’t run away

Don’t run away
Promise you’ll stay

 

That song came on Pandora while I was writing this and it seemed appropriate so I decided that I should post it. Anyways lately i just feel as if I am not who I want to be. I want to be strong! I want to be invulnerable! I want to be me! Things are just hard, and I am having a hard time letting things go.

Like today when I let the team down in the last game, I just felt as if I was suspended again. I just felt all of the disappointment from the spectators and my team mates. They can say that it is okay, all they would like, but I know how it really is. Because I have not always been anchor, I know how much it kill inside to think the game is in your hands then at the last second, you loose everything. I smiled, and said its okay, and that we all did great, as well as making sure to say good game to the other team, but inside I just wanted to die. I was choking back tears the whole time. When did I become so weak?! When did I turn in to a Pussy! This is not who I am, This is a spineless, beaten down, bruised, crippled creature.  I do not like this ‘New me’ It’s time to get the ‘old’ me back!

“Unwritten”
By: Natasha Bedingfeild

I am unwritten, can’t read my mind, I’m undefined
I’m just beginning, the pen’s in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We’ve been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can’t live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah

 

I think Pandora is trying to tell me something! It’s time to be me!

Still feels different

I love me, Lets go girl!

~ Vickey~

 

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I just want to tell my story about Bree. and here is how I'm gonna do it!
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